Updated My Virtual Model Picture & Belly Shot.

The picture of me in the pose of a "My Virtual Model" was taken over a year ago. (March 24th, 2006 to be exact.) Time for an update!I also said that I wanted to add a more current picture of what my belly looks like, so I killed two birds with one stone! Tah-dah! You can really see the difference in my thighs! :-DNote the lack of "loose skin," and what's that below my

"I Wish Someone Would Do Something About How Fat I Am"

The title of this post is from a t-shirt I saw in “The Onion.”This shirt pokes fun at the idea that people don’t take responsibility for their own health.Even though it is supposed to be "funny," it really hit home with me. For so many years I just WISHED I weighed less, but I never did anything more than that.“God! I wish I was thinner! SIGH! (Mope, mope, eat more junk food…)” I even hoped I’

Greif and Stress

ACK! It’s been a while since I had a new entry here. Things have been so sad and stressful recently. On March 12th my cousin’s wife gave birth to a son who only lived for 90 minutes. The Funeral was last Friday. It was so touching and heartbreaking.My work has also been really stressful the last few weeks. I don’t seem to have any free time! (This is apparent by the lack of updates.) ;) Keeping

My Bootie is Better!

My tailbone has been given a clean bill of health! It will always be twisted to the right, but it no longer hurts. :-) I have a follow-up appointment on March 26th, but if I am still doing well by then, I can cancel it. :-) Woo!The weight I gained in February is being really stubborn! I was 149.25 this morning. It has taken me 12 days to lose a pound. If I keep at this rate it will take about 4

My "Skinny Jeans" are now my "Fat Pants"

The tight sexy jeans I used to squeeze myself into for a hot night out on the town are now the pants I wear when my period puff strikes. It is exciting! I am trying to focus on HOW COOL it is that the jeans I nearly had to lay down to zip up are now my "fat pants..." But it is so hard to do when my weight has spiked up so high...With my busted bootie, I have not been working out as much this

Happy Birthday to ME! :-D

Today is my 29th Birthday! :-D People keep asking me if this is my "Last Birthday." God I hope not! I am not going to do any "29 and holding stuff."I'm looking forward to what I can accomplish before I reach 30. :)We'll just have to wait and see what this year brings. :-)Cheers,Jess

I can't sit on that, I'll break it!!

It is so hard to get my head wrapped around the idea that I am a healthy size now.The other day a co-worker offered me a folding chair to sit on. It was one of those tiny ones that in the past would have flattened if I had tried to sit on it.I thought, "Oh GOD! I can’t sit on that, I’ll break it!!!"And I said just that. "I'm sorry, I think I'll break it."Then he gave me this look like… what